end of summer sadness.
transitions are hard for me. even though i'm going from good times on this coast to good times on the other coast. but two equally fun lives are hard, because they never exist at the same time and i have to wake up at six in the morning to get on a plane for five hours to go from one to the other. I just dont like the goodbye part. but no one does. summer was great, definitely the best summer in recent memory. i want it to be next summer now, but i know once i get to school i wont want to leave, because that's how it always goes.
wa wa wa.

So today I went swimming at the Claremont. Fun stuff.

Interaction # 1:
While sunbathing, I ran into diabetic Danielle, Sarah Tiffin and their non-camper friend. Danielle and Sarah hugged me and then I gave their friend an awkward hug, because I decided it was weird to shake an 11 year old's hand. Hugging was also awkward.

Later I see my camper Jake Drummond's parents, in a non-awkward fashion. Although his father asked if I was "the drama girl."

Interaction # 2:
I went down to the changing room to chill in the sauna. While putting my bag in a locker, I run into Danielle's mom, in her bra and panties. We chat and its not too awks.

Interaction # 3:
After the sauna and back in the locker/ changing room, I'm in a towel reaching for my underwear and one boob may or may not have been out of the towel. Then I hear "Arie!!." I turn around, attempting to cover my self up and I see Sarah Tiffin. She says, "this is awkward." Then I proceed to put my clothes on as quickly as possible and run away.

naked and campers should never go together.

So I'm in Greece, that's exciting. I got here yesterday. It's really hot and pretty. I haven't done that much yet, so more fun updates to come. I'm killing some time until I check into the program I'm doing. I was super proud of myself because these past few days have been the most self-sufficient I've ever needed to be: school-> shuttle-> airport-> to paris-> to greece-> to the hostel-> to the program. So that's exciting. Um... I want to go to the acropolis today. I kind of only want to go if I find people from the program to go with. So hopefully that'll happen. Orientation isn't until tonight.

Leaving school was really sad. I loved school this past semester. I found a bunch of friends who I love and who love me and are always free to play. The spring at school is wonderful, although because of the stuff that went down at school a few weeks ago, it wasn't as lovely as usual. But still. Once I finished my essay, senior week was awesome - working all day and playing all night and not having any homework. I'm super excited for next year. When I get home I know I'll be way into camp, but right now I'm still in school mode. And its a nice mode to be in.

This semester is going by soo fast.
I just planned out how I'm going to get all of the major projects in my life done for the last seven weeks of schoolBut it's all gonna happen without too much ridiculous stress. I love organizing my life.

For my acting class, my group is adapting the little mermaid into a performance piece and we figured out what the story is going to look like earlier today. I'm really excited, but the expectations are really high for these pieces... so I hope ours turns out how we imagine it.

I had probably my solidly best improv show last week, although it was rough for our new girls.

There was this boy that I had a big crush on for the past month. We're in everything together this semester and he's soooo amazing. and smart and talented and wonderful... but has a girlfriend. so I'm coming to terms with that. but, she's a senior and he's a sophomore... so there's two years of maybe once she graduates...

I'm really looking forward to thanksgiving because my sister and brother and niece are coming to CT and then Boston for the weekend!

But I kind of don't want this semester to end, because I really like the stuff I'm doing. But hopefully the same will be true of next semester. We're doing course registration really soon.

I'm not sure if I want to audition for the faculty show for next semester. There aren't that many characters and two girls' parts are reserved for people doing theses. I also dont think I have a good enough monologue right now. If I audition and dont get in, I'll definitely work on the show because I need more tech credit for the major.

on that. I'm so pleased with my educational experience here right now. I really like the theatre department. obviously there are some issues. But I love the acting classes and shows. i feel like i'm learning sooo much. i also love the religion department. ahh. good stuff.

i'm liking the friends i'm closer to this semester. and we're gonna have a lord of the rings weekend extravaganza soon.

next semester i'm going to make a point of visiting friends (charlie!) early on, before things get crazy. although without acting class, my life will be less crazy anyways.

guh, pushing daisies is taking WAY too long to load.

So I saw In the Heights last night. For freezies. With a whole audience of Wesleyan students, alumni and related people. So, the show was quite awesome, as everyone who has seen it leads one to assume. And when they came out for their curtain call, the lead, who also wrote the show while he was at Wesleyan came out in a shirt from one of the campus eateries and talked about the school a lot and brought people out onstage. And then he led everyone in the Wesleyan fight song. It just made me really proud to go here, and be a theatre major. Which is really nice, since I've kind of been feeling the opposite. But the whole couple hours I was in New York, I kept thinking about how I wish I went to school in a city that didn't suck. Because there's always stuff happening on campus, which is nice, but I'd rather go out around town than go to a big party. Again... transitioning back to school... I like some things and I dont like other things. But that's true about everywhere. Like at OSA I felt like the only reason I stayed was because of the theatre and the people and now I feel like the reason I'm staying here is because of the theatre and my classes, but not really the people at all. guh. transition transition.

So, I'm back at school. Now, granted this is only my third day back, but I have this constant anxious feeling that wont go away. I dont know if its because classes haven't started yet and I already have work that I've been procrastinating doing. Or because I so enjoyed this summer and real life doesn't compare. Or because I'm here and bored and want friends I like better. Or all of it. I just want to feel like a person and not an anxious ball of guh. I know, sophomore slump and all of that... but I just want classes to start so I have things to fill up my days. I like having alone hang out time, but at home I dont feel like there are a million things going on right outside my door that I'm not doing for one reason or another. I can just be happy watching tv or playing with my dog or reading a book.

summer is so much simpler than schooltime. fewer highs and lows. i like school, but it still feels so much better to be home.

also... icon!

yay camp.

So. I have a week and a half of classes left. Which is fabulous. And the CT weather has been beautiful for the past week, Casey knows what I'm talking about.

I'm so bored with friends at school. Since, literally the first day of school, I had this nice cohort of friends to eat and hang out with. Which was really nice. But now I only really like three of them. And they are the three that don't live on my hall. But the ones on my hall, including my roommate are all still buddy-buddy. And the ones I like don't really like all that much hanging out, although they will see shows and sit on the hill, which is nice. But I feel like I don't have anyone to have fun with. I also feel really competitive with my roommate, because she has better social skills than I do. And when she goes to hangout with people, even ones I know and like, doesn't invite me along. Which she certainly doesn't have to. But I wish she did. I feel like I'm good with social situations where everyone is getting to know each other, but not so good with ones where everyone has groups of friends.

This is kind of on the periphery, because I'm busy with work and shows and improv and stuff. So that makes it better.

The show I'm stage managing goes up in a week. It's turning out pretty well. I'm just worried about being in the space. But two people asked me to SM for next semester and I told them no, even though one is a thesis show and I'd get credit, which I need for the major. But I feel like I didn't perform enough this year. Last semester because I was neurotic and this semester because I was SMing and doing props. So I don't want to be tied down for next semester.

Basically, I'm super excited about summer and CAMP!! Although I'm sad I wont be working until august. But I shall come to counselor improv. And I'm excited about doing A-Camp.... but I want to know who I'm working with! Mo: Is Valerie working this summer?

So yeah. I'll be home in just over three weeks. Coolzies.

life backwards =
winter wonderland and sledding on a toboggan!
sleeping for 13 hours
being up for 36 hours and doing improv for 24 of them.

The twenty four hour show was crazy. A day is SOOOO long. The last hour and a half was really awesome. and the hour long drama about a care bear who was addicted to heroin.

not too much finals work to do. and then home. for a month of boredom?

I have temporarily decided what I want to do when I grow up: work in children's television/ films?.

The first step in this mission will be to get an internship with the Jim Henson Company in LA. But I really want to work at camp too, so it might not happen this year. I dunno. Also I dont think that I want to be away from home for the whole summer after i've just been away for most of a year. Or I could intern with KQED, that would be exciting too -- but not exactly in line with my mission.

Also: going home in less than two weeks? crazy. I was just there. Thanksgiving and Winter break are too close together.

Um....I'm really excited about my 24 hour improv show next week. It's going to be redic. Like for reals. Casey: You know you want to come :) But Conn transportation sucks, I know.

So I got called back for one of the thesis shows, which was nice. And it was very movement improv based, which I enjoyed. we played tag and rolled around on the floor. They still haven't gotten back to me, which is annoying since the call backs were on monday. and there will be rehearsals at the end of winter break which would suck. because being at school with no one here would be really weird. as well as a shorter break being yukky.

I think I'm going to do better on my last bio exam. although I'm never taking bio again. bad plan little arie.

Audition = good!
monologue + Taylor the Latte Boy + crawling on the floor = good
Chatting and knowing directors etc = good

chapped lips and cold = bad
but whatever.

party in the tomb avec secret society. exciting.

When ever I try to go to bed after three I have trouble falling asleep. Like now.

But I had a pretty fabulous evening. We went to a funk music concert that Tina sung at, which was really cool. It was quite fun music.

And then there was this boy named Leon. I'm pleased and watching Greys Anatomy instead of sleeping.

I had my first improv show last night and it was great! I played a story game speaking in Dr. Seuss that ended perfectly. Then we were playing this game where one person of the three playing as to have their head in a bucket of water at all times. And as I was going to replace someone in the water, I slipped on the water that was already on the floor and kicked the bucket and broke it. In short, there was water all over the room. Luckily it was our second to last game, so we just played celebrity butt fuck while standing in water.

But it was much much fun and we had a good turn out and then we hung out and got pizza afterwards. A good night was had by all. My roommate couldn't come because she was seeing John Cusak at Inside the Actor's Studio in NY. So that was sad.

I love college.

I got into the improv group!!!!!!

They came to my room last night. Which was really exciting, except for the fact that my room mate and I were already asleep...because I have a nine o clock class....

Anyways, YAY!!!

I got called back for one of the improv groups!

Um...I feel a lot better about myself now.

( Arie has a bit of an ish...a really really long ish ) this was so long. i'm sorry. PS. I really do love college, and am quite happy. but this is in the back of my mind and likes to rear its ugly head from time to time, mostly as i'm attempting to fall asleep.

is pretty quite cool. i enjoy my room and roommate greatly, as well as the friends we have made and seen more than once or twice. my room mate has a picture of a stern giraffe above her desk and i have one of bertolt brecht smoking and shaving. they make a nice combination along with batboy and a seascape.

today we square danced and met some awkward people, but had a good time. at some point my schedule will be vaguely finalized and put into the computer to decide its fate. i dont know if i will be satisfied until after drop and add, but i guess that's the point.

anyhoo, things are great, we are chill and i am not yet homesick. yay!

this is re-donk-ulous:
in the past week, i have seen a woman walking a duck (with a harness and a poop basket - i thought of you, sierra)
a parade of turkeys walking alone in my neighborhood
and a woman walking around CCAC with a cockatoo on her arm. weird.


other than that, its really late. i was just at a really nice afternoon/ evening in antioch with two of my former teachers and four of my really good school friends.

i'm super sad i missed fun camp activities....

have some during fifth session!!!

ummm....what else....

i turn eighteen in five days and move to college in a fortnight (i love that word)

my tummy is bubbly and i really need to go to bed.

These have been a very eventful, and very good (mostly) 24 hours or so.

Highlights:
I sang the best I have ever sung in a performance.
I graduated from high school.
And I won an award.

Lowlights:
Stressy rehearsals
Saying goodbye
Loosing my best friend to LA.

But the good outweighs the bad, because the bad can definitely be dealt with.

And now it's over. On to camp tomorrow! and the rest of my life in a few months.

ahhhhh...

No more shows in high school. And I just realized that I graduate a week from tomorrow.